Yawnnnnn....guys, as I dey type this, I am still in bed....and like my facebook status says... "It feels so good".. Anyways now, merry xmas in arrears to you all, and a happy new year in advance. This might be my last post in 2008...
Men this year was crazy. I entered this year scarred from my battles in 2007 which was a year of facing some deep inner issues I had had for ages, which had basically attracted a lot of nonsense into my life. I am into personal development, and there's something called the law of correspondence which is that "Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world"....and that pretty summed up me.. I stumbled on a book which contained some wisdom in focusing my mind on all what I wanted instead of the things I feared.... I took a lot of risks this year, getting an extra job to pay for my fees and still graduating on time, which most guys said was impossible, flying out to finally lay eyes on my gf...getting the job I am in now, with company accommodation, and the perks...it was crazy...after so many rejections
But then, I wanted to fly like the eagles, and I had to leave that thirty thousand naira a month job in Lagos....when I told someone in church this, he told me that was pure wickedness, for someone to pay that amount....lol... So this and a whole lot more (i.e being separated from my woman) was the price I needed to pay, to be where I am now.
I have become an inspiration to many of the Nigerian students here. They hear my story and look at me, and they know its possible, to graduate against all odds. I had friends and my gf supporting me through the hard times. Times when companies rejected me, saying I wasn't good enough, times when my account was in the Negative. All these made me a stronger man, and I am grateful to God for all the hardship I went through.
I believe God has been showing me how to be happy in the present moment. We think when we get married, get that new job, car, etc, we will be happy, but we have to just learn how to be happy in this present moment. I have experienced this.... I thought getting a first class (which I didn't) would make me happy and earn my folks approval(which it didn't)....I felt a lot of cash would, or getting a different chick all the time...but if your inner world is in turmoil, your outer world will be crappy.
My relationship has issues, we have been seriously racking over so many things. Its mostly due to the distance factor, so when someone says something, the mind is trying to interpret it in a way....so well a lot of misunderstandings...but seriously I am not bothered, because I believe everything is working together for my good. If it doesn't work out...well, I have shown I can stick to one person, except if some extreme shit happens to me (which hasn't happened in ages)...and learnt a lot about myself...and conquered most of my inner issues which will make me a better person for the next chick that comes along...which I pray will be the last...only that I don't want a next chick. In spite of all her wahala, of which I got mine....shes MY wahala causing woman and I like it that way...lol....if it doesn't work out, God knows best and I choose to be happy....and if it does of course I will be happy, when I am not mad.
Ehen, lemme gist u guys. My naija friends and I were coming back from one city here (After hearing some guys speaking yoruba in one station), so we met one dutch guy in the train who deduced we were from either Ghana or Nigeria. When we mentioned nigeria, he said his ex wife was Nigerian, and he lived in edo state (where I was born), and used to drink star beer. We all laughed...he now said "hmm in Nigeria, if someone dies, they leave the body on the street for ages, no one picks it up"...which was true. One of my dads oyibo friends tried to get the naija police to remove a dead body from the road....I will leave what happened to your imagination.
The dutch guy said he chats with a lot of Naija chix online....then he said "After sometime, the girls will start asking ....'Do you have money?'"
That was so freaking embarrassing men...when will some people know that their actions color a lot of innocent guys like us?
Another funny story, at my former redeemed church in delft, my guys were like, "The difference is clear" as in how I look now that I have started work. One of my friends was asking me about my woman, and I said she was in a country far away. He was like..."Hmm, when una jam for Nigeria, in fact, No be small jamming" it was funny, but I didn't want papa God shaking his finger at me...He now went on to say "Abeg make it official in Naija ooo, so you can get proper blessings....hahahaha"...guys and guys....well all of us are mostly in this position, having a fiancee or girlfriend back home, waiting.... I came here without any attachments, but how I met mine is another story..
I remember one 'brother in the lord' who before he went back to naija, vowed he must "score" at least two goals in his wife, before he came back here for post masters. Me, ooo, I no dey read again, abegi.
Men, my level of aggro has increased, and Mrs hand and her 5 daughters, rashidat, bukky, wunmi, efe, and joan, have been tired of my visits. Its become to crazy that I hope the thing doesnt come out of my nose and hurt someone...lol
God dey sha, I go make am...if God be for me.... nothing do me.
I will put up my vision/revelation for 2009.....let the spirit lead me...and don't worry, I will finish straffe okon... I have been toying with the idea of publishing it, but my conscience seems a bit weak...lol