Monday, December 29, 2008

Yawnnnnn....guys, as I dey type this, I am still in bed....and like my facebook status says... "It feels so good".. Anyways now, merry xmas in arrears to you all, and a happy new year in advance. This might be my last post in 2008...
Men this year was crazy. I entered this year scarred from my battles in 2007 which was a year of facing some deep inner issues I had had for ages, which had basically attracted a lot of nonsense into my life. I am into personal development, and there's something called the law of correspondence which is that "Your outer world is a reflection of your inner world"....and that pretty summed up me.. I stumbled on a book which contained some wisdom in focusing my mind on all what I wanted instead of the things I feared.... I took a lot of risks this year, getting an extra job to pay for my fees and still graduating on time, which most guys said was impossible, flying out to finally lay eyes on my gf...getting the job I am in now, with company accommodation, and the was crazy...after so many rejections
But then, I wanted to fly like the eagles, and I had to leave that thirty thousand naira a month job in Lagos....when I told someone in church this, he told me that was pure wickedness, for someone to pay that So this and a whole lot more (i.e being separated from my woman) was the price I needed to pay, to be where I am now.
I have become an inspiration to many of the Nigerian students here. They hear my story and look at me, and they know its possible, to graduate against all odds. I had friends and my gf supporting me through the hard times. Times when companies rejected me, saying I wasn't good enough, times when my account was in the Negative. All these made me a stronger man, and I am grateful to God for all the hardship I went through.
I believe God has been showing me how to be happy in the present moment. We think when we get married, get that new job, car, etc, we will be happy, but we have to just learn how to be happy in this present moment. I have experienced this.... I thought getting a first class (which I didn't) would make me happy and earn my folks approval(which it didn't)....I felt a lot of cash would, or getting a different chick all the time...but if your inner world is in turmoil, your outer world will be crappy.
My relationship has issues, we have been seriously racking over so many things. Its mostly due to the distance factor, so when someone says something, the mind is trying to interpret it in a well a lot of misunderstandings...but seriously I am not bothered, because I believe everything is working together for my good. If it doesn't work out...well, I have shown I can stick to one person, except if some extreme shit happens to me (which hasn't happened in ages)...and learnt a lot about myself...and conquered most of my inner issues which will make me a better person for the next chick that comes along...which I pray will be the last...only that I don't want a next chick. In spite of all her wahala, of which I got mine....shes MY wahala causing woman and I like it that it doesn't work out, God knows best and I choose to be happy....and if it does of course I will be happy, when I am not mad.
Ehen, lemme gist u guys. My naija friends and I were coming back from one city here (After hearing some guys speaking yoruba in one station), so we met one dutch guy in the train who deduced we were from either Ghana or Nigeria. When we mentioned nigeria, he said his ex wife was Nigerian, and he lived in edo state (where I was born), and used to drink star beer. We all laughed...he now said "hmm in Nigeria, if someone dies, they leave the body on the street for ages, no one picks it up"...which was true. One of my dads oyibo friends tried to get the naija police to remove a dead body from the road....I will leave what happened to your imagination.
The dutch guy said he chats with a lot of Naija chix online....then he said "After sometime, the girls will start asking ....'Do you have money?'"
That was so freaking embarrassing men...when will some people know that their actions color a lot of innocent guys like us?
Another funny story, at my former redeemed church in delft, my guys were like, "The difference is clear" as in how I look now that I have started work. One of my friends was asking me about my woman, and I said she was in a country far away. He was like..."Hmm, when una jam for Nigeria, in fact, No be small jamming" it was funny, but I didn't want papa God shaking his finger at me...He now went on to say "Abeg make it official in Naija ooo, so you can get proper blessings....hahahaha"...guys and guys....well all of us are mostly in this position, having a fiancee or girlfriend back home, waiting.... I came here without any attachments, but how I met mine is another story..
I remember one 'brother in the lord' who before he went back to naija, vowed he must "score" at least two goals in his wife, before he came back here for post masters. Me, ooo, I no dey read again, abegi.
Men, my level of aggro has increased, and Mrs hand and her 5 daughters, rashidat, bukky, wunmi, efe, and joan, have been tired of my visits. Its become to crazy that I hope the thing doesnt come out of my nose and hurt
God dey sha, I go make am...if God be for me.... nothing do me.
I will put up my vision/revelation for 2009.....let the spirit lead me...and don't worry, I will finish straffe okon... I have been toying with the idea of publishing it, but my conscience seems a bit

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Merry Xmas!

Hey my peeps... I just wanna wish you all, merry xmas. Lets thank the Lord, its been one heck of a year. Don't know about you, but it has been for me. Anyways that's for my new years posts. So whats up? Got into Delft last night, then went to the redeemed for xmas eve dinner...don't blame me... the moi moi was yuck...but the peppersoup overcompensated for that. My chick used to tell me never to eat moi moi outside, but I just My pally and I had fun inserting parts of Dbanj's lyrics into Christmas carols. I can remember my friend looking at the length of my samsung earphones, and asking, 'why are your headphones a loong thing?' lmao!
Some strange ish is happening to me.... its like my senses are open and I am seeing attractive babes everywhere...even the ones in hijabs are looking haawwt.... it reminds me of one dude I met during NYSC. The guy was one spiro guy mehn, the guy jisted me that according to him, he used to be one baddo...then after he gave his life to Christ, he told God, if he ever panshed outside marriage, that God should strike him dead on the spot. When he told me... I was like ..."Gulp"..I love Jah, but the guy upstairs knows crazy nerd aint gonna make a vow like that....but my guy told me when he made that vow, all sorta hot chicks began crawling out of that's how I feel now. I also remember a preacher telling us he made the same vow...but with a variation....God should make him run mad(beats dropping dead anyways), and even if he gets prayed for...let it not work. no do
So sha, I am at Delft now, at my bros crib,and we had the Christmas present unwrapping, which my lil nephews were looking forward to, and it was fun to watch the expression on their faces when they saw their gifts. One of my lil nephews was so excited, he kept twitching, and tossing and turning in his sleep. My bros and his wife loved their gifts...OK I got em novels, my gf said its cus we are a family of geeks it was her idea to get em stuff for xmas. I got a 24 euro book check to buy books anywhere in I will update my "Artermis Fowl" series...
Anyways I get naija party to attend today, and enough rocking.
The person doing the party told me... "In the spirit of you fleeing from temptation, I have refrained from inviting any of your...'kind' to this event..."....those of u who know me know what she meant..
I can unashamedly say this is like my best xmas in this country, and I spoilt myself silly, enough baffs...guys and to yourself is awesome and therapeutic...try it one day! LOL!
Merry Xmas too baby, love you loads!

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Hey my, xmas is around the corner ooo....anyways speaking of xmas, I decided to give myself some presents....psychologists tell u that you gotta treat urself well, after you accomplish looking back on this year, I felt I did deserve some gifts so I went out shopping. I wanted a new phone....the one I had before was horrible, and I had my eye on the iphone...but over here, t-mobile has locked all functions, and I didn't want a phone which didn't have bluetooth or copy paste. My friend disagrees with me, but yeah, no I got myself for xmas

1. Samsung omnia 8gb

2. The first book in the "Artemis Fowl" series

3. Couple of scarves

Then I shopped for my family, etc...I had settled madams shopping last week, sure she wuld like it.

Anyways, as always I got naughty things on my mind, so I remembered an experience I had in secondary school. I was just getting into puberty, and my love for big big somethings was manifesting, especially with those lovely Ghananian woman selling puffpuffs...but I digress. Anyways I was in the local fellowship, which basically gave me psychological issues for years later, and I also had a "small-boy" crush on the female fellowship leader. Anyways I confided on one of these so called people, and he prompty informed me I was possessed/afflicted by the "Spirit of Jezebel"....or whatever that means....took me years to accept the fact that my high sex drive was healthy if channeled in the right direction.
Anyways the person I confided in now leaked my jist, and apparently the female fellowship leader heard it, when said person used me as an example of how lust was eating into the fellowship...kai, see my life.
When he/they later repeated a class (actually there were 2 of em who I confided in...cmon, my house and family weren't exactly confidante material), I felt it was vengeance from the most high.

Anyways I talked to the fellowship leader when we were in SS3, telling him I had a problem with lust, etc, and I needed help. See my life. Guys, abegi, no laff o. So he takes me to one spiro teacher, who was married to one intergrated science teacher who was hot. Chei....those days I no soji..
Anyways one saturday we go there and the guy begins to start carrying out "deliverance" on me. Casting out demons and shit. Now, I didn't feel anything. Seriously. After reading all the trash labelled as christian literature about demons, I expected lights, flashing, deep voices...but I didn't get anything like that, and time was going and I was getting bored.
So what did this crazy eficco do?
I began to act...check it out:

Teacher: I bind you in Jesus name, get out of him
Other student holding me.
wavemasta: (thinking) ol boi, this thin dey take too long...ok wetin be d name of that mount zion movie about demons...wetin the guy dey yarn..ok, ishawuru from agbara nla
wavemasta: (impersonating): no way, we are from the sea, we arent going lai lai

Teacher: entering into more frenzy: yes, leave him , go etc

wavemasta: Ehn, no way

It went on sha, till It ended...cant remember how....then the guy now said when he first saw me he saw the "contact point" was my eyes or something like that...we sha became friends till I left..and he always had fine honeyz always in his looking back, I wonder why....

Anyways most of my fellowship boiz just sojied (woke up) and became bad bad leader above us stole his mums stuff, and there was jist about one of them touching someones breasts during a closed eye session prayer meeting.. well it took me a while to deprogram myself, accept my sexuality, be normal, and have a relationship with a God who knows that I'm very randy but I try (and sometimes to channel it in the right direction.
When I janded after WAEC, nna men I had to deprogram myself, almost made me go mad...lots of confessions with my priest, lots of accepting my sexuality and my issues, and sorting myself out all on my own. When I have my kids, I am gonna be there for them during this period of their lives...I will accept them and not judge them. I will teach them and let them make their own mistakes n learn from em.
Anyways guys, hope you had a good days in secondary school. Kai, loving big big somethings, well, I'm hooked and my chick would have apoplexy if she heard me mention second
I love myself, my sexuality, and apart from all that, I got my goals, and where I am going in life...ahh my wife go so
Guys, I love you all....have a good week, I will blog some stuff later on.

Monday, December 15, 2008

My people wassup? Mehn I am tired, tired and horny...wait first, lemme sexplain...sorry Today was our first day at our new building in a new city. You know I said my company moved and all that. So we got to the place today sha, it was tight, tight place to work, etc..but since it was an open space, I had to be careful wetin I dey look for internet, so all those crazy posts on some Nigerian forums like.. "Is virginity a good thing" were out of the question, and of course afrobabes blog was out of the question, before one stiff dutch man sees one picture and gets me
Men, its like those winches from my village sent them again oo...hmm, as I was in my new office chilling like the good boi that I am, I saw this chick...well she was older, but men, orobo, big,the way I like them, in a miniskirt again, plus leggings, ahh, next thing anaconda just began to see the binding and casting I use for the tin...readers, why is it that snakes are so hard to tame, ehn?
I sha removed my eyes, u know, this celibacy of a thing, can be hard especially for someone like me, but well I dey tell myself say na for good cause.
Then after lunch I saw her again, bent over, the miniskirt hugging her backside, as she was pushing something..kai, no be something sef me I wan push? lol...and she had specs again, and was looking serious...secretary fantasy anyone? lol
Next thing I went to the coffee machine to get myself some coffee, or was it to use the bathroom, I can't thing my hot-chick-sense (as opposed to spider sense) went off, I just turned to see one bakassi sticking out of a door...then the bakassi moved, and the owner of the bakassi revealed it was one of these Moroccan immigrants, fine...and so anaconda begin dey yarn me:

Anaconda: wavemasta, no mess up ooooo, no mess up...
wavemasta: Dude, cmon celibacy..wait sef, how u take wake up
Anaconda: bros leave that thing, just step to the chick tell am salaam aleikum, yarn am some deep koko like dbanj, she go chop am...shebi na foreigner?
wavemasta: oloshi, I bind you..

After this conversation, I went back to "work" sha, then we had lunch, the seats were so soft, it was like making love to my body, this is why I love big I miss my chick ooo... and I love naija women in general, all my big sistas, but I can't marry you all, can I, even if I take enuff blood tonic..madam go do me strong
Ok fastforward to me walking around looking for a secretary ok look this time it was thing, my senses go off again...what on earth is wrong with this place? Ol boi, the next chick I saw taking some coffee from the, she could give some naija chicks a run for their money in the ikebe department...while I was still cum-templating, she looks at me and goes.. "Hello"....ahhh anaconda was about to be fully know I have locked up the snake till his owner is around...but men at times, especially in situations, he begins to stir, waiting for a chink in my Armour...but I AM STRONG! Amen brother!
Ol boi, after that hello, I just went and sat down jejely. Hmm, seems these chicks here might be verrry friendly after all, and language might not be a barrier. After all, "I want you", can be translated into many languages.
But men, seriously, what will I gain...especially in the light of what I really want from a relationship, and from life in general?
But omo those chicks set
On how this place affects us, I got a facebook message from a guy living here who told me he was gonna run nuts, he'd been here working for a major company, which if you mention its name some naija chicks would screw you silly, right there and then...and said he hadn't met any Nigerians, and he was just in his own world, and all...and we had a mutual friend, so we talked, connected.He sounded like he was really going to lose it. Anyways he told me he'd go to naija for xmas to see his chick,(lucky bastard), me wey I never come home for over 2 yrs, well sha, he'd come see me maybe around new years day...he told me about some dutch dude working in the same company who committed suicide. And he told me "seriously, there's more to life than working for a good company...everything else has to be in balance"...and I totally agree. In naija we believe that once we "make it", by getting the cushy job, etc, then all our problems will be solved....that's not it.
I remember looking at my GPA of a first class, my first year in university back in naija and asking myself "Is this all there is?"
I now have hustled, gotten my MSc, and yeah am working here in a comfy job, but I still feel the emptiness inside...and no its not because I don't have Jesus...its that through no fault of anyone..the bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh isn't here..that special someone I can be vulnerable with....
And no amount of fake sex can erase that, or compensate for that....the loneliness can be killing, the lack of intimacy. Yes even as crazy randy as I am..I know whats up. I take refuge in God and pray and all...but at times you ask yourself.."Is this all there is?"
God knew what he was saying when he said "It's not good for man/woman to be alone".
So I felt my brother, so I understood where he was coming from. You gotta be strong minded to survive here.
I even met one of my naija guys here, the guy dey yarn me say I don dey here for 2 yrs say wetin, say make I go home.. I told him I would go next year anyways.
I know that if I am not single, men no chick go catch me lai if I am not, men, na God oo, biko... let me not count when last I released anaconda.
Oh, and the "no chick can catch me part?" Abeg, this isn't an invite to tempt me, abeg, joo, sorry ooo, to whoever might decide to take it personally. Hehe.
But it's all good...we go dey rock am dey go...naija no dey carry last.
Overall, work was good, I had fun, nice perks.. now 2moro it's the same thing.Argggh!
Make I go rest.
Laterz guyz!

Monday, December 8, 2008

I will. Yes I will!

Hey how far...hows it going? Well like I always say, I don't have anything to report...nothing like some other bloggers I know...anyways I am writing this as therapy for me, so well, sorry, no straffe okon, or any juicy
Work is going's just that the system I have to learn is so large, and everything looks so complicated, and I am a bit scared of not performing well...remembering the reasons my last company didn't renew my contract..but its all good. Xmas is coming and well I don't feel too good about it. I was supposed to see my gf(If I can still call her that) this xmas after 8 months, but well at the last moment, something just messed up the plan...this winter and season that was meant to be joyous for me is just looking dark and dreary and I do not like it one bit. But wetin man go do? I checked out flights and stuff but they are just too damn expensive. I choose to just see it as I gotta work harder to reach my dreams of being a billionaire philanthropist.
Apart from this all, well my relationship seems to be ...rocky.... there was this disagreement which sorta pushed me to breaking point... and it looked like there was no light at the end of the tunnel..I blogged about it sometime back but well I took it down cus it was like my friend said.."looking very much like something" I am just going to just chill out.
You know, I am someone who has always battled, always fought to get to where he is today. To top this off, some kin spiritual yawa began to try getting me down...just imagine some thing whispering obscenities into your mind about people you love n shit..but mehn, I didn't reach where I am by being weak, I have fought, and kept on just get every part of my life in order.
At times I wonder if the devils and people from my village had a special meeting about me. Maybe they saw my future (Which my former pastor said was impossible), and decided I was just too hot to handle, and so they should gimme special
As a guy, society expects a lot from us, and a lot of things have been written about maturity and what it entails, but I found out that we are always growing...there's no point where one can say hes "arrived", and knows it all. As guys we are thought that we are just meant to be hard and bottle shit up inside, and even from our chicks...but well, I guess wisdom is needed to handle all this, and you do not want to offload the devils poison on people, and also, cm on u need to be vulnerable with someone. It's hard being a dude, and expected to be superman and solve everyone's problems and then... see, this is why some guys actually cheat. They have a girlfriend or wife they display this macho side to, and they got someone they go lay their heads on their laps...check out Samson, the strongest dude in the Bible. The guy must have been freaking lonely men, solving everyone's problems, kicking philistine butt...and he just needed someone to accept him for who he is, and that lead him to Delilah..and we all know how that story ended.
Sometimes guys have someone they have to just show male dominance too...i.e sex, etc, and they get their emotional support from someone else...which is why you see some issues in marriages...Some men cannot just reconcile the 2.
So girls and now have a valuable key in your hand to understand your men. Use it wisely, and send your appreciation to my swiss bank

I solved that problem or God solved that for me by providing a temporary solution. I had a female friend that I wasn't attracted to (She was thin, thin as a rake :-), L ure my friend, and she was older (Not an excuse but the combination was ewww...), and I could talk to her about anything, about my nightmares, and stuff, and not be judged, I felt free to speak to her, cus I didn't send her like a girlfriend. If she went off and said hey..."Dude ure a freaking nutcase"..I wouldn't have cared, because she wasn't my chick...but I felt terrible talking about those things to girls I was actually dating....that's because I was scared man...scared they'd run...scared of showing them my fears, insecurities, etc...insecurities don't fly ...not in naija, not in our world..even guys with insecurities pull others down to make themselves feel good...Don't believe me? Well its true. Everyone's wearing a mask and hurting inside..only God can heal us.
L...thanks for your help God bless you loads, though he already has.

My current or (I don't know the state of) girlfriend was the only gf I had whom I could let inside completely, but men, it got to a time I had to prevent my battles from affecting her.. I always felt that no chick would be able to enter my world because of my issues...spiritual, family, etc...and that's why I restricted myself to flings...yeah I let the devil screw me bad...but well I am out of all this...I cried to God and he helped me. Although at times its hard. My friend once told me she thinks God put me in this position (i.e the wilderness position) because I needed to be in a place alone with just God and myself dealing with me... and yeah I had the madam...and I thought I found someone that I could give my gift to. I always knew I had the gift of loving..women...or rather one woman...for me when I fall in love its consciously.... I have let off the brakes for some wrong peeps before...but this was different. I wonder why I never ran mad, especially when I was studying for my masters, wonder why I didn't commit suicide like my friend did...but God kept me....all those bible verses I crammed just would come out and I'd just keep battling em...and keep smiling.
Anyways I had to stop depending on L so much, and face this on my own...cus I had to take responsibility for the gf..and turning to others when ure in a relationship seems somehow.. So here I am...

The world can be a bitch my friends. You got demons screaming at you, and ure meant to just smile at people...lets try and reach out to one another, you might just save a life.
I wrote this as therapy for me. I do not have any issues with blogging about my issues or fears online, cus well who knows who it might help? There's different sides to me. There's straffe okon :-), and there's so many parts. We all have someone who's reading this should just be encouraged. No matter how much you feel you are screwed up inside, trust me, someones going through the same. But I am here and still alive, still sane, (I didn't end up in a mental hospital...or dead), I managed to graduate from my masters, get a job...

As I am typing this I still got issues. Jobless demons still trying to mess my mind up, telling me I think this and that....relationship issues...devil telling me "Hey, you are gonna be alone" telling me my insecurities won't go, and that one of the major blocks in my relationship won't be removed.... and maybe I might end up lost in Europe, and I will never be the man I was meant to be...or maybe someone better than myself will always get my chick or future chick. I am also trying to sort out this family issue of mine...cus even though I am on my own and stuff....this whole family-dictate-your-life thing has gone on too far enough. I have a harder time breaking free cus all my older siblings are used to this, and they use the "Honor your mum and dad" verse for it all...imagine what that would do to the self esteem of a soji man like myself in the 21st century..yup...emasculation.
My relationship seems like something you just put plaster on, treat the wound, another one comes up again...thing is the love is so strong, I never experienced something like this b4...which is why it got me that we might not see this xmas...but men, I wonder...I have asked God....whats the way 4ward? People say "love is not enough"...but where did we get that idea from? Love made God send his son to die for us.... Love the bible...first Corinthians...
Loving a chick can be hard hard work...especially the way God wants u to.

Yup! I got issues....but you know what? Jah dey... God dey. I look at my "achievements" for my age, and yeah I try small. Still got a long way to go, but I still try sha.
We all have issues, but if I am still here and fighting, then who the hell are you to give up?
Nothing do me men, I am more than a conqueror through Christ who loved me...
If you're from another religion... God is still your strength and he will sort you out... As for me... I am determined to win in this life. Make the cash, get the girl, touch lives, in no particular order.
And you know what?
I will.
Oh yes I will.
See you at the top..hurry up though..I might be so big I might end up taking your

Saturday, December 6, 2008

My people wassup, hows it going? Enuff gist dey...ok lemme start. I moved into my new crib today. The company got us a sweet crib, modern furnishing looks like something out of IKEA, pimped up kitchen n living room...and us 3 engineers get to bunk in there...sorry, 3 crazy, my italian friend alberto, and reza from indonesia. The house needs some changes though... I need a heating, and rezas key is stuck..we also need
I got my friend felix (raw food dude) to come stay over...hes snoring right now..I always told him his snoring sounded like a generator. You know those ones in naija wey go dey sound as if the diesel is adulterated? Yup, na so my guy snore dey sound...and of course I snore, but mine sounds like a quiet hum...the one u get from a silenced
Well sha, enuff things have been happening, and enough challenges, but you know what? I am getting better and better, and God is leading me through my own unique training programme, and its cool. I have had issues with madam and coping with stuff here, but I am sure its going to be ok. I edited this post... I had seriously vented, but make I cool down dey watch...
Ciao guyz....sorry oo...nothing interesting has been happening, I havent dressed up like a chick or gotten laid

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Mehn, my people its not been easy, we thank God anyways. Nuthin much has been happening, just me settling into work...I swear the hard part is getting up every morning, and biking to work...arghh! And its snowing again, OMG....when I get to work I need coffee to shock my system back into shape. But I thank God, I cannot complain.
Speaking of the cold, that's just one of the challenges I face here....another is the loneliness and lack of intimacy.... u know am in a long distance relationship, bin ages I saw my gf, and I swear its crazy.....I miss the companionship u know...just having someone lying beside you, you could talk to...not just about sex, although speaking of that, I wonder if I haven't lost my skills, or I can still do some positions...see, its my blog, I can say whatever I
Someone from my past (a female) predicted I wasn't gonna be able to stay for 2 yrs without getting laid...while she wasn't totally incorrect, shed be surprised to see me now. I guess its true what people say...when you meet "The one" it's just different I guess..... I actually am here, and keeping to myself, u know being selective with any female contact here, just cus, well, what I got is worth it, and I am working to keep it. Although mehn, it can be was so so not made to be alone, walahi, God knew what he did when he made woman for man.
It's reached the stage my best friend tells me my need to get laid reflects in my voice...kai, make I catch you foolish
Well, to compensate, thank (Insert name of deity here) for Mrs hand and her 5 daughters...guys guys, don't criticize me....dudes gotta do what a dudes gotta do, and Mrs hand always comes in "handy".
But men, at times I ask myself, Ol boi, are u sure u can still do...etc etc...
But the loneliness and all is of my friends is so scared that if his relationship with his naija babe doesn't work out, he will just go and carry one akata.. I keep telling him to cool down, but I feel where he is coming from.
Anyways I go see madam this xmas insha allah, companionship men, e no good make u dey think things make devil dey try do u bad things in ur mind.
Amazing how lots of Nigerians back home think once you are in Europe or abroad that automatically the key to heaven has been handed to you. Man, you pay a steep price, let me tell you, nothing good comes easy. At least back home you get to come back to your loved one.
I was even advised by a friend to consider having a fling as long as it was "harmless"....if to say I was someone who couldn't think for themselves maybe I might have bought I said, well, I can't hurt someone I made a commitment too, and he said the same abt his chick...and he promised her not to touch another chick...but well lets leave that.... but yeah there's that temptation, and I know some guys in relationships back home who would take that offer. I am not better than anyone or holier (Hell no!)..but I have realized...after sex is over, and you look at the person beside you, and realize you guys don't have anything...ure just like "Damn....why didn't I just wank?" Trust me....its happened to me so when I say that if you have something precious with someone, don't throw it away..I knw what I am saying.
I had a serious talk with jah today....went kinda like this ok not exactly, but u get the picture.

wavemasta: Jah, how far, see we need to talk

God: yeah I know, see u no dey fear dey call me jah..see your head...

wavemasta: Sorry sorry daddy but you know I love

God: So whats up?

wavemasta: God, thanks for everything, for blessing me, for...

God: Dude, cut to the chase, ure grateful, ok,I get it.. now whats the koko?

wavemasta: God, I'm lonely, I'm horny, and am being faithful....which is whats expected of me anyways

God: Correct, u dey represent.

wavemasta: But see, we need to sort out somethings and if you know you don't want me doing things, well, make it work out so we get married o...and yeah let this chick and I work out.

God: Trust me, its all working out for your good...

wavemasta: amen

God: Can I go now? Hehe, just kidding....

Well una get the full picture.
I need to sleep. Gotta get up 2moro, hit the office.
Ciao dudes and dudettes!